This Water Machine Sucks

My birthday is coming this week. I don't really know what to do that day. Maybe I'll try to forget about it; treat it like every other day. I don't feel accomplished or happy with what my life is now or anything I do anymore, but I guess that is expected.

I don't know. I've been feeling mentally suffocated lately. Somedays I just want to jump off a building but instead of hitting the ground, I never hit anything - just falling forever. I want to be done with school and out to the navy already, but with covid, my sick mother and other stuff to factor in, it's going to be awhile.